I’m really curious what the psychology is behind this. For some reason I have fallen victim to the infatuation of this man. I was raised in a good home. I have always been modest/ conservative. I have ethics and morals and truly understand what he did is horrible in every way, but for some reason, I am so sexually attracted to this man that it’s making me question myself and what could be wrong with me. I genuinely feel if I had the opportunity to be anonymous and visit this man, that I would. I am not part of the women that think that I am above others and that he wouldn’t hurt me, because I’m sure, with him being a psychopath, that he would probably murder me as well. I just think that it’s extremely interesting that the attraction to this man could influence me to overlook what he has done, and fantasize about having sexual relations. I know that he is not innocent in any way, and that he has obviously had mental issues since he was younger. I do believe the system failed him, but I’m not justifying his actions. Does anybody have any insight of why nice and decent women can feel this way towards someone like him, or where it could be stemming from? I’m sure most people would find his tattoos extremely intimidating. I feel if I saw someone on the street with these tattoos I would be frightened and intimidated, but for some reason, I find them very attractive on him, which is crazy because they are racist and horrible tattoos. Does anybody want to talk about this? Please no judgement. I myself have a liberal arts degree and have taken many psychology, sociology, and philosophy classes, and am intrigued that I am the subject of this infatuation. I do not believe I have hybristophilia because I think the murders he committed were vile and horrendous. I am more curious as to why I am fantasizing about this man.