I'm demisexual, a survivor of sexual abuse, and lack any experience. Thankfully—a sad silver lining—my abuse was over the internet and not physical, so I don't have much aversion to physical stimulus. I am still in the process of unlearning some things but I'm doing better.

Entering my 20's, I came to discover my demisexuality. I don't really become attracted to people and my feelings can change at the drop of a dime. Someone I don't really feel attracted to, can become a God with just a few conversation.

Due to being isolated from a normal high school/teen social life, I didn't experience the ups and downs of puppy love and exploring my social environment. Only getting out of my situation basically when I turned 20, I'm just lost. Never been on a date, never been kissed, never had a physical, developing relationship. The only thing close enough to that, the guy took advantage of our closeness due to his own insecurities about his body.

Now I'm 24 and I want to jump start what was stolen from me when I was 14. But I have a lot of trauma I'm working through, I'm very uncomfortable with sex and I'm terrified of being forward about waiting—I don't even know what that means for me—and I have no idea how to...date. Anyone can relate?

TLDR; As a demisexual relationship virgin with abuse trauma, I'm trying to reclaim what I've missed out on. Anyone can relate?

Edit; reupload since I accidentally turned on live chat 😅