So I'm 32 and still a virgin. At first I didn't care too much when I was younger because of school, college, and professional career. But then as I got older I started to get lonely, longing for someone, and started to think about what was I really doing in my life. The loneliness had me masturbating almost every other day to daily. I've started to think that I was doing it to get those brain chemicals going to not make me feel as depressed. I thought about How in my younger days I've wasted my time and possible experiences. Sure I'm stable, have a nice well paying job, own my own home, but can't shake off the regret of skipping steps. It doesn't help either that i view my self image as isn't the best. I'm not obese or super fit, just in the middle of the spectrum. It's a total confidence killer when you try to shoot your shot at ladies and I don't meet their ideals or expectations. It seems like it gets a lot harder to date as you get older. Either the ladies are engaged, married, have a boyfriend already, or already given up on finding a bf/only want friends. It's almost getting to the point where Im about to be like them and give up. But I want that intimate romance and connection with someone. I want to experience those feelings I could have felt when I was younger when both person's were new and exploring things together. Sad to say to myself that those possibilities are long gone. One could argue to keep trying and don't give up, but it's really mentally exhausting. Or one could say just give up and work on your self improvement and enjoy you being you, and enjoy life. Yes that sound great, but I don't think I've gotten to that point yet. I feel like I'll always be yearning for a relationship. Who knows, maybe it'll come to me eventually. I just hope that person would be accepting to who I am and not be turned off by it. But anyways, thanks for listening to me vent. Man I'm lonely lol.