Hello again, this will be my third post and probably the most depressing post that I make. It has been about a month since my last post and not much has changed in fact I don't think things will ever change.

I really should not be thinking about how being a virgin is no deal but I do think about it, I am still careful about doing it with someone I care for though. But I just want to relate to more people by saying that I did something and while it felt like shit and I feel no different afterwords I want to say that I DID something.

I get jealous and angry at how people younger than me are finding it easier to do things and people will say that you are 22 and that I am still young. I am not getting any younger and again people younger than me are doing things that I should have been doing by now.

None of the apps I am using are working. I have been on Okcupid since late November and have not matched with anybody despite the fact that the people I liked look as if we could connect. I have been using Tinder for a bout a month now and while I have some likes I have not matched with anybody even when people get matches left and right. I have not matched with anybody and doubt that I will match with anybody. I have been using Bumble for like two weeks and nothing has happened with no matches. Nothing is working for me is the bottom line.

I should go out and meet more people and I should and I want to it just is very hard for me to do so. I have told others to never lose hope and here I am losing hope. I know I have time before I turn 23 but I don't want to be a 23 year old virgin but I strongly believe that I will be.

I at least want to go on a date with somebody but I doubt that will ever happen for me, no one around me (other people not friends and family) takes any sympathy on me by going to talk to me and why should they? I mean nothing to them. I am losing hope and I know I shouldn't. Hell I have tried r/dirtyr4r in an attempt to see if people could teach me a few things. That obviously has not worked and I will not try again.

These are my thoughts for the moment and I would like any advice. I know this is a rant but I just feel like posting here again because sometimes this problem bothers me. I just want someone in my life and I don't even need to have sex but I would very much like that though.

Thank you to anyone who reads this, perhaps my next post here will be more happy in that I will have made some progress and am happier. I don't know if that will happen but a lot can happen in a month so see you then.

Also while I maybe losing hope I do not want any of you to do the same, remain hopeful because while things may not be happening for me that does not mean they will not happen for you.