Well here I am again writing about what's on my mind. This is not some success story about how I feel in love and lost my virginity because in reality I am still far from it as possible.

Well I kind of asked my crush out and she said maybe next week even if I just asked her if she wanted to talk more sometime. I probably messed things up with her, I mean I do not believe she is interested in me since she hasn't shown it, but my drive to find love is still burning bright as ever even if the flame died down.

I am nervous but I still feel the need for change, I don't even want to have sex, I want to make love, anybody can have meaningless sex I am want something more and I am sure some of you want it to, No offensive to anybody who want meaningless sex it was not my intention to offend, but I am willing to wait a bit longer if it means that I will have this someday. I hopefully will lose it before I am 23 in December, hell I hope to lose it before the end of the semester at the end of April or beginning of May.

My only advice to you all is to not lose hope and to never give up, to any of you below the age of 20 you are fine and have time, hell I still have time I may not feel it all the time but I do know that I am and most of us are still young. We will find our someone either they are your perfect match and or even if they are the ones to help you lose it.

Sure society pushes sex on us and so what, it may hurt but we have to keep fighting, and if any of you are in pain I feel you and tell you to make that your driving force. But most of all just do it for love and be smart about things.

I may do another post next month and perhaps one of these months I will tell you my success story but I would like to tell you that even if I feel like crap at the moment I do not want you to give up.

Good luck out there people I give you my best.