I'll be 29 in just a little over a week, and at the end of January is my trip to the UK where I'll be hiring an escort and finally losing my virginity. I had a huge long rant about my life, the things bothering me, and whats led to this point, but in the end I know this isn't a venting page so I'll keep this much shorter than the original post was. I'm not thrilled at the fact that I had to pay for something that normal people have no issue with, but being a late in life virgin has made me feel like a loser, outsider, and many other things. I mean I AM a loser, but not just because of the virginity thing.

I wasted my time in college, I was obese for most of my 20's, and I've never really had much interest from women unfortunately. While I am improving my life by going back to school so I'm not stuck in retail, losing a significant amount of weight this last year (almost 60 pounds!), and just doing small things to make up for lost time, the thing that bothers me the most is still being a virgin when I'm pushing 30. I'm looking forward to finally knowing what its like, and while it isn't with someone I love, it'll be good enough. Again, I'm not thrilled about the fact I have to pay for it, but its either this or die a virgin. This was the worst year of my life by far for so many reasons, and to end it off I ended up in the ER two weeks ago. I want to at least have a better start to the new year and finally lose my virginity and have one less thing hanging over me and I can finally focus on other things.