Hey guys 23M here. Obviously I really want sex, but not just any sex, sex with someone who wants to have sex with me. No prostitute/hooker could give that that genuine affection. I just want the feeling of knowing a woman wanted to have sex with me, feeling desired. I want legit sex you know. Paying a hooker would just make me feel worse and I would rather die a virgin than stoop to that low of a level. It just hurts that I probably never will get it. I'm up at night crying about such a pathetic and stupid thing to care about.

I hate how I care about sex so much. It gets me teary-eyed and depressed knowing I will never accomplish it. But I still cling on to a small amount hope that one day something will change. I'm such a loser for getting so emotional over it. I hate my life.