22M

I just really want sex with a girl who wants to have sex with me. I don't want an escort as it would make feel worse for having to stoop to a low level. I'm ok with an ONS but would prefer an LTR. It's so pathetic to care about sex so much. I hate how much I care about and how emotional it gets me. At night I can't help but let it cause me to cry. It's such a pathetic and dumb thing to care about, yet it gets the most tears out of me.

I've been trying to improve but with no luck on getting laid. I've been working out, starting a skincare routine, improving my style, and more. Yet I'm still stuck where I am.

It's not just the sex itself I want, but just the feeling of knowing someone wanted to have sex with, the feeling of being sexually desired, intimacy. It's such a dumb thing to get sad over, yet here I am.