Hey all 22M here. It really hurts not being able to get sex, but it's not just the sex itself that I want, but the feeling and acknowledgement of knowing a woman wanted to have sex with me. The feeling of being sexually desired. It really hurts. An escort could never provide a fulfilling experience like this as the sex is purely transactional. I only want sex with a woman who actually wants to have sex with me and that's where it really hurts because it feels like it's impossible. I could buy an escort, but It'd be hallow and I would feel worse off afterwards. Money can't buy legitimate love. It's just frustrating, it feels like the one thing that is out of reach in life that I really want. I'm fine with a hookup, but I would prefer a long-term relationship. I just hate how I care about it so much, it gets me in tears every night.