Me and my gf of almost six years have been trying to plan a visit. I'm in Louisiana and she's in Michigan. This year we're both 18, so I figured this year would be the best time since we don't need an adult as we are adults. And everything went smoothly with planning, till today.

So, for context, we've been talking about her coming down for thanksgiving. Originally I was gonna go up there but we didn't have funds for the whole family. However, my father has a roundtrip flight ticket. It was supposed to be used to go to a cousin's wedding in California but he had to cancel cause of work. He offered to give it to her, paying it himself and everything. It was all falling into place perfectly.

She'd stay with us, pick her up at the airport, ticket paid. She'd have no expenses unless she bought something here. Sounds like a dream huh? Paying nothing to see the person you love. That is until tonight I called her dad, just to explain and get his input on things. We talked for a bit, he hung up and I sat there happy. Thinking things were gonna be perfectly in place with little complications.

Then it had to take a fucking nosedive into an orphanage for the blind.

She starts spouting out random shit. Okay, she does this when stressed or extremely nervous about things. Then her dad calls meit

BIG FEAR NOW

Apparently, she's got some goals she said she wants to focus on. I.E. getting a car, stable job, and college.

So now I'm sitting here, holding back tears cause guys can't have emotions apparently. Trying not to cry in front of the boys in party chat. Am I not important? Am I just, here? A side character or an easily replaceable sack of flesh?? It's never a good time, they always say another year. I'm tired of shit like this. I just want to hold this woman in my arms and tell her I love her. Dance with her under the stars to our song. Watch movies with her, play games together. But I can't be happy. I don't know what to do. I love her, but she's always out of my damn reach and I'm tired of it.

TL;DR GF can't come down to see me after 6 years of long distance because of goals. Making me feel lesser than what she says I am