2 years ago I got into some trouble with the law dealing with drugs, it was at the very start of the pandemic and about 5-6 months later I get caught again with drugs mind you I don’t do them I was selling them. I didn’t have no help from family and it was like I was left to fend for myself yeah I had a gmom but only thing she did was tell me everything wrong I was doing so after my second time getting caught I just decided to get a job at Fed Ex, once I got the job I loved working having a responsibility to get up and work hard was like a brain rush to me. I worked for a year and a half before I became unemployed. Long story short it’s hard finding a job to accept me with 2 open drug charges. I’m a good kid had a few hard school years but I still graduated idk it like my whole life been me climbing over obstacles and no matter what I still get fucked over no matter how good I do I can’t take to much rather it’s my gmom telling me hurtful shit I just can’t wish I could stay asleep forever starting to now give a fuck about my life again don’t really care if I go to jail or die seem like nobody else in my family care neither nor blaming them for stuff I did but it’s no support system or a person who won’t judge you when you speak your mind my gmom told me she don’t give a fuck go to jail she won’t come to visit she told me this because I vented to her saying they forcing me to use my hands meaning soon I’m going to do something bad I just wanted to vent and express how I feel