I just need a place to vent because today I spent 7 hours working on a resume, cover letter, and answers to the essay questions on the listing for a job in my field which I really wanted and was super excited to apply to, only to go to submit it this evening and find out that they had filled the position and deleted the listing only 20 minutes before I went to submit it. It’s so frustrating to not even get a chance to apply and to feel like I worked so hard for nothing!!!

I’ve been looking for a job in my field while I work part time and live with my parents after college for about 10 months now and I’m just so tired of it. I’m networking like crazy, applying to every job i can find I think I might remotely like to do, and still I don’t even get a reply from most places I submit applications to despite the fact that I’m qualified for and capable of most everything I apply to. I’ve gotten 4 rejections in the last two weeks alone and I’m just really tired of feeling like I’ll never get my foot in the door and be able to succeed or get where I want to be in my career. I have gotten so close so many times only to be told in the final interview stage that I’m not what the company is looking for or, like this time, to be told the position filled before I even sent in my application. It seems like a rough job market for a lot of young people right now, but that doesn’t really make the rejections feel less like a personal failure on my part every single time. Job hunting takes so much energy mentally and emotionally and I just feel sad and exhausted constantly now, especially when I have to keep getting my hopes up and experiencing disappointment and failure multiple times per week. I think I’m doing everything I can to be a good candidate and network well and find out when people are hiring, but nothing works. I’m just so completely frustrated and tired and hopeless right now, i am so done living with my parents and would really love to be able to live my regular life again instead of just constantly being in this stagnate transition stage where everything is uncertain and I have to constantly put my worth on the line to be judged by people as one of several hundred applicants to a job.