I didn't know who else to go to who would actually listen to me and not called me brainwashed... I'm christian, not orthodox or catholic but i practice aa if orthodox. I keep sinning, regardless of what it is; sex, drinking, smoking, ect. And I want to stop but i keep going back to sin and I hate myself for it... this might be a long rant so If you don't want to read I understand... Almost all of my friends push sin back into my life on a daily basis. I hate it but I still indulge in this lifestyle out of fear of losing everyone. I was raised protestant and wouldn't even swear growing up, i considered the word "stupid" to be swearing, I had a lot of religious trauma growing up from having it forced on me, and I'm finally claiming it back, but how? How can I be a good Christian if I keep sinning heavily. What do I do? Do I give up and continue down the path to hell? Or do I cut everyone off who I hold near and dear to me so I can stop going down this sinful route of life to death, and beg God for forgiveness? I really am stuck...