Feeling really alone in the world right now. Especially in relationships. My husband has changed so much since we got married 6 years ago. He was an atheist, pro choice supporter, open minded and caring. Now he's a orthodox Christian, Trump voter who either thinks our whole marriage is falling apart or everything is completely fine and there is nothing in between. Oh also I'm going to hell because I've slept with a woman I wasn't married to (before I met my husband) and I won't repent, both for sleeping with a woman and sleeping with anyone outside of marriage. I lean more towards pagan/greek mythology and beliefs as well. Something he's said is derived from devil worship. He's not mean to me, doesn't hurt me physically but I feel so alone in this relationship. We moved out to California for his work. I left everything behind to support him and our son emotionally. I've been called a miserable bitch for complaining, and told that I'm just too sad all the time, and I should try to feel better. He does comfort me if I'm not sad because of him, but otherwise he gets defensive and dismissive. I've tried to connect with others and I get ghosted or we just don't click as friends. I spend every day looking after our two kids and I see no end in sight.