I’ve never posted on this sub, but I need a place to put this so here it goes. I’m 32m. I have a wife, 28f. Approximately 3 years ago I made a life transition from bullshit, soul-stealing 9-5 jobs to something I found a passion in. EMS. It was my way I could do something for someone else with my life. A way I could give back, where I could be the light in someone’s darker days. I saved up, quit my job and transitioned into EMT school. It was 6 months. We started with 13 and ended with 5, and I was top of the class. So much so, that my professor offered me a spot in the medic class. After consideration with my wife, I took him up on his offer. It was a 15 month course, and I went hard, studying 6-10 hours a day, daily. My car broke in the middle of the course and I had to walk 9 miles one way to my 12 hour clinicals. 6k elevation, 60lb backpack. Then the walk back. I did it though. 4am, snow or ice or rain, I did it. We started with 17 and ended with 4, again, I was top of the class. I was elated. There were an insane amount of obstacles in medic school, but I got through them. I passed. My dad, my only family member left, moved to Louisiana before I passed medic, so I saved up to move to him so I could keep an eye on his health. When the move was made, I signed up for a large 911 agency here and worked as a medic for them for 3 months. In that 3 months the supervisors and field training officers tormented me. It was a horrible experience and I had to quit after 3 months to find a new agency. This took 2 months, during which time we had very little to survive off of. My wife can’t work due to medical issues so I’m supporting us both. I lost 30lbs in these 2 months because I couldn’t afford actual meals. I got through it though, and started with my new agency. They loved me here thankfully and I love what I do. Of course though, I developed a medical issue that put me out of work for a few months. I’m finally back, but due to how the schedule is when I came back, I won’t get my first real check again for 2 weeks, and I have nothing left in my savings to take care of my wife. Nothing for anything. I got us this far, I sacrificed everything I could to get us here and I just don’t know what to do. I want to be able yo take care of my wife during these next 2 weeks. I don’t have family, nobody has been willing to work with me and we’re new to the state so we don’t have friends to lean on. I’m just so stressed. I have another 24hr shift tomorrow and just dont have the energy that I should. I just want to provide.