I'm taking a trip down memory lane not nostalgic or anything of the sort, just seriously asking myself why. Why am I alive, how did I make it and I don't have an answer. By all explanation I should be dead, I should have died a long time ago. For back story, I lived from 16-21 with a reckless abandon, doing all the drugs, doing dangerous shit, drunk driving and when I mean drunk I mean like I was drinking a gallon of whiskey on top of smoking meth heroin opium weed snorting and boofing and smoking pills eating all the hallucinogenics. (Where are the quayludes?) I tested synthetic cannabinoids and know of one specific that I liked am 2201. (If y'all know your shit and that last bit wasn't in my zombie matter blackout ultra k2 call me out n tell me what it actually was) and those are just the good parts/ what I remember of them. I'm not even into the deep shit n I won't get into it just Jesus fuck why what even how?