where to begin, I'm a 32 year old male who has not held a solid relationship in a few years, I'm living with my ex for financial reasons, I joined reddit to help me meet people, but I'm so socially awkward that I'm often ghosted, I've lost my interest in my hobbies, my insurance didn't cover my therapy, but did cover my nurse practitioner for my ADHD med, however my meds have altered my mood, I'm striving and trying, the meds help with executive disfuntion, but not with the general interest i have in my games, or anime that i used to have, and all i seem to hyper focus on is romantic endeavors and cant seem to shake the over whelming loneliness, and my current saving grace is my discord friend group....but it at times feels like all i have going for me. i just want to vent to help clear my mind, cause the meds and mood make me cry about it alot now.