I need help.

Im the oldest of five children at age 25. My younger brother age 24 is proposing to his girlfriend after dating for about a year. I am happy for him but upset that I dont have that part of my life figured out. Ive come to the realization that at this period in my life if you arent dating, married, or have kids no one(family or friends) gives a shit about you.

On top of that I currently live with my younger brother in his house he bought. I helped him with some of the remodeling process and in return got semi discounted rent. I have been here for almost a year now and Im being kicked out along with the other tenant(we are on a month to month lease) because of the proposal to his girlfriend.

Im upset at my younger brother because I feel he almost never admits he is wrong. I could rattle off multiple examples. One is the kitchen cabinet/drawer handles. After 10 months of living in the property he hasnt made the update to the kitchen and I have to pull the bottom drawer out first just to get to the top drawer or one I need. Hes making other improvements to the home such as the backyard. I’ve brought this to his attention multiple times and his response is “I dont have a timeline for the kitchen handles”. Ive pointed out that a pack is only $30 or so from amazon. Lets call a spade a spade, I know Im paying off his mortgage every month along with the other tenant. I know he had help with some of the flooring from my mom and was in debt to her for a while. My argument is this. Ive paid off his debts and his mortgage. Hes told me the house cashflows him $700 extra a month on top of the mortgage payment with a 2.7% interest rate. He doesnt give a shit about his tenants at all let alone his big brother who has had his back since the day he was born. My mom tells me Im wrong on this and I dont agree.

I feel as if my entire family sees my younger brother in a different light than me. It seems as if they are more engaging with him but when conversing with me they dont talk in the same praises. My brother and I both recently got new jobs at the same time and he makes 40k more than me. He graduated college this past year with a degree in accounting and I graduated in 2021 with a degree in finance. Ive brought this to my family’s attention and they’ve told me Im wrong again.

Ive been thinking of moving because I feel its impossible to grow when you’ve lived in the same metroplex for the past 25 yrs. Every day I wake up I hate driving and seeing the same thing Ive seen growing up as a kid. As someone who is also trying to grow spiritually I feel its hard to connect to church groups because my younger brother has his reach so deep people write me off as X’s older brother when thats not me at all. Im my own person and not just X’s older brother. Im extremely upset and depressed I feel passed over in topics by my own blood.