I was born at what I think, is the worst time, and worst class to be born into. I am a 21 yr old male, born into the lower middle class, in a meaningless Midwest state, that will never not be impoverished. I swear to god, my whole life has felt like I’m fucking cursed. Things go well for a few days at a time, and I’m blindsided by some financial, legal, or even people problem. I have had quite a million fucking jobs, and I started working at 14. I barely made it through high school and had to join the army reserves to go to college. Do you know how fucking sad it is that the U.S Army is the most caring employer I’ve ever had? And I’m sure you all know how much they care about you. But at least (after basic) they at least pretend to care, and can’t just fire me or let me go. But like I said, Reserves so I typically only go once a month and at most make a little over 300 dollars. I am a psychology major in school, and work at a mental hospital because I figured it would be great experience and look great in the future. This fucking hospital pays its MHT’s 14 an hour. I am an MHT. Anyone on this planet, if not going into the psychology field, would ever put themselves in the situations that come with a mental hospital for 20 dollars an hour, much less 14. I am in FUCKING college. There was a class I was apparently supposed to attend, but I was at a class at school obviously. I got an email about it 1 fucking day in advance, and I obviously wouldn’t have been able to go even if I had seen the god damn email. I am now suspended from my only real source of income for over a fucking month, because I accidentally missed one class I wouldn’t have been able to attend anyways. Keep in mind, I have been at this job for a little over 2 months, I am fucking new and I get once fucking chance and I’m pretty much gone? Not to mention the supervisor or whatever he even is was so fucking rude and condescending about it. My last job was an ok job, was there a little over a year. But it only paid 11 dollars a fucking hour. I CANT SURVIVE OFF THAT. I CAN HARDLY SURVIVE OFF OF 14 NOW I HAVE NO WAY TO EARN MONEY FOR OVER A MONTH. Almost every job I have ever had pulls some shit like this. I’m looking for a new job on 2 different apps, nobody wants to pay you a god damn thing even in this fucking economy. How the fuck are you supposed to make it? Why is everything so fucking hard? Why is everyone so fucking greedy and horrible anymore? What the FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FUCKING DO? I would like to add, like I said I have only been there about 2 months. That last job I was talking about, I’m still there, this is just my last week so I’ve had both at the same time. Perfect timing for them to fuck me, when I’m on my way out of the other one because I thought I could depend on this one and the semester is almost over so I could work most the summer. They had a 6 day orientation, 8 hours a day, flinging information at you all 8 hours, about every single aspect of the job. That’s all you get, you are thrown into it after and expected to know everything because they told you. As a fucking MENTAL institution, they should know that not everyone’s brains work the same, I can’t just absorb that much info all at once and remember it all and I know I’m with the majority on that too. I haven’t met a single fucking person that isn’t in a leadership position that’s been there more then 9 months, I am dead ass serious. But I can’t find anything else, I literally want to give up so badly. I am not a cryer at all. But I have been sobbing for 30 fucking minutes not even out of sadness, just pure fucking rage. And things have only been getting worse. With the world, with people , and my own fucking luck. Life isn’t supposed to be this way. Please, fucking anyone what the fuck should I do?