i love being single. I love having that sorta freedom and not have to worry about anyone and what they do. I love doing things for myself. I love having these little moments that you cant do in a relationship.

But i also want him.

He's a football player. 6'6 in height and 250 in weight. Darkskin and has a very deep voice. I sat behind him in government class and i thought he was cute but now i developed a full blown crush on him.

I tried to ask him out once but he said he was talking to someone, which i respected. Now they broken up and i want to try again but i just don't have the same confidence anymore. I feel like he'll find me weird or something.

Not only that, but i don't think he'll find me attractive. Im overweight, messed up teeth and when i go to school, im always dressed like i don't care. So i highly doubt he'll go for me.

But im obsessed with him. I see him in first period economics everday and every single day i get nervous. Seeing him walk or talk..jus even standing makes my stomach hurt.