So a week(ish) ago I had 2 close friends ask me out and I made the ashole decision of dating the 2nd person then feeling like an asshole (Yes I'm aware this is an Asshole move, I still feel bad abaout it) and then because we just wern't feeling it, we broke up after a few hours and it was during that 1st relationship I knew who I actually wanted to be with. So I say yes to the first one and fully aknowledge what I did and appologized for it. To my surprise I was forgiven and what happened next were 2 of the happiest days of my life becuase I was with someone who I genuinely loved and could conect with, but after day 2 she broke up with me and blocked me because she wasn't ready for a relationship.

And I get everyone has their reasons but I was utterly crushed and in fact I still am I'm just writing this post to try get it out of my mind because it's all I can think about and it feels worse everytime i think about it, so here I write this post crushed and shattered from loosing someone who I loved but I guess life moves on but, and I know someone's bound to say this is dumb. But if she messaged me right now I'd most likley take her back.