gave you more than I should have, that was on me I stayed home every night waiting on you, that was my choice I used the excuse that you made me do wrong but that was in me the whole time I feel emotions and I get them confused I lost grip of reality & who I am, I started to lose.

I loved getting lost, lost in a place where what you do doesn’t matter, what you feel isnt real, words mean everything even more than our actions, but everyone elses actions change our soul. A place with no mirrors but magnifying glasses and microscopes and even with those, people and valuables seem to always disappear along with respect & loyalty. A place where lies are real & real is a lie. Where you get lost and forget to say good bye.

Where 2 or more is better than one, unless its a faded memory of your daughter or son. This place doesnt judge you by your morals or even looks late at night, lol but then uses your slightest imperfections for a reason to start a fight. Where sorry is used freely but holds no weight and it doesnt matter if wrong or right to continue a debate. A place that outsiders dont overcrowd or even care to know and instead of soup something different is shared in a bowl. Its time can zoom past you and hours turn to years and have the strongest defense against loved ones plea & even tears. I followed you here now I cant get out, please I just need someone, anyone to show me the route…