im slowly accepting that the only men who will ever be truly be into me are the ones with an ugly fetish and degradation kink. although i still often feel worse after engaging in these things, i know that i just need to play the cards ive been dealt with. (even my rapist would tell me how fat and ugly i was, lolll). is it pathetic? yes absolutely! but im tired of being told “i wont leave” and “it cant be that bad” just to be ghosted basically immediately after finally sending a picture. and if im being 100% honest… i just want the sexual validation, too. i have serious daddy issues. i long to be a pretty girl, one where men lust over her beauty. i pray a day comes where i can shower and stare into the mirror without wanting to sob. i would do anything for plastic surgery at this point :( being ugly hurts my heart

edit: i do not feel comfortable sending pics of myself to strangers nor am i circus freak for your morbid curiosity so stop messaging me just to get a selfie