ngl I had some doubts going into this LDR with my dom cuz we're both in school so we rarely get breaks. I also knew that if I started any LDR with anyone, we might not be able to meet again for at least a few months after winter break. Personally, I think I get needy often, so I thought about whether I should look for someone closer to me, but after our first time meeting, I ended up quite liking him. However, after our second meeting, I realized that I don't have those doubts anymore and I really do want to continue our dom/sub relationship despite the distance. In addition, we both have our copes when we're down bad, such as he likes to roleplay w others while I get off to my literotica/audio erotica.

I just fall so easily into my subspace when I'm with my dom. The ephemeral feelings of vulnerability and adoration I experience in the moment are almost euphoric 🥴 Powerplay and ownership are my top kinks, and when I am around him I just feel so thoroughly owned as if I'm his property and plaything. Even though I do covet violation and cnc, at the moment, I don't want to have casual sex with anyone else even if my dom greenlights me to do so while he's away cuz it's a massive turnoff. It makes me feel less like his possession and sex without the power aspect seems almost mundane to me 💀 I'd rather just masturbate (I also prefer non-protected sex, so STDs are scary and no bueno). I lust over the thought of knowing that my body belongs to someone and that I have to give all of myself to him whether I want to or not. I desire to be an obedient lil loli slave for my daddy 💕 My pussy and mouth crave the shape and taste of his cock in them, while my body craves for him to hurt and abuse me <3 Every time, even though I dislike pain, I feel elated and wanted, seeing him enjoy inflicting pain on me. I trust my dom completely and I have never actually felt scared of him or worried that he will cause permanent harm to me.

Despite the whole kink/sex aspect, imo my dom is just genuinely a good person irl. I can't stand people who are mean to others for no reason or even if there is a reason (hatred breeds hatred and I won't take part in it). And, I enjoy being around people who are laid back, chill, and go with the flow, someone who won't get angry over minor things or things gone wrong cuz I have the same disposition. I consider myself a pretty observant person so I notice the way he treats others and myself. I'm not sure if he recognizes this about himself, and so his personality is one of the major reasons why I don't want to quit him. Even though we've only met twice, he has always been nice to people in customer service jobs and makes sure to tip everyone well. He also lets me tease/molest him to hell and back and he's super chill about it. There were some other things that caught me off guard that I truly appreciated, but I'll keep those to myself for now 🥰 Aside from that, his general eccentricity is something I vibe with. He's not afraid of being open w me and shares his hobbies and thoughts easily. All in all, I just feel extremely comfy around my daddy. I don't have to be afraid to be myself and he indulges in my weirdness as well :))

(tbh idk what this post accomplishes, but I'm feeling giddy and I have to get my thoughts out since I literally just saw him yesterday 🤣 I'm just super happy my first dom is such a great guy and I want to gush about him like a fuckin simp uwu)

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Beach House - Beyond Love

CASTLEBEAT - Dreamgaze

Phoenix - Lovelife

Declan McKenna - Make Me Your Queen

Turnover - Dizzy on the Comedown