i feel so incredibly irritated and my worries and insecurities overcrowd my headspace and i feel panicked and i just need things to just relax why am i so unbelievably insecure right now fuck i feel stuck with how i am i don't really like how i am how does anyone like themselves does that make any sense but i just know that i'm not okay with myself i try and try to improve and change so that i can have the relationships that i want and things have changed a bit but i feel this despair when i look at where everyone else is at it just seems i'm destined to be in the same place forever or that i'll never move fast enough i want to be where everyone is at but my being fights against it

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i just want good relationships, i just want to feel okay about myself