Hello. To everyone that's concerned as to what happened to me, here's the message I have sent out to those who responded to my post.

Again, I am truly grateful.

I have sent this message around 9AM today. I fell asleep around 4 or 5AM. Still feeling nauseous from the lack of sleep but I am definitely more calm now.

Hello. Thank you for your concern. I really appreciate it. I was able to talk to someone and I broke down crying, I passed out because I was too tired. I just woke up. I've received around 100 messages, and to sum up why I've had a full blown anxiety attack earlier, here's what happened.

My ex from way before messaged me yesterday and just earlier he apologized for being an ass to me these past few years. We were together before I went to college, so imagine how long that has been. He was such an ass to me, once his now ex GF, insulted me and he joined in the fun. He was THAT much of an ass. He never really apologized to me until now. And right when we were catching up, he told me he has diabetes I/II, that started 4 years ago and he wasn't feeling well these past few days and currently he's on a sick leave. I got worried. He was in the ER last Monday for getting hiccups, due to his ketoacidosis interfering with his breathing. He lives alone, so I'm worried about him. This deep rooted fear's from someone I've lost. It triggered my PTSD, and I was panicking.

I'm anxious about sick people because my late fiance died while he was away from me. He went to the US and I didn't know he was already sick then. He was ill and he was all alone, I just found out when his nephew told me. I knew and I can't just go to him and take care of him. The reason why I'm freaking out is I just don't like the timing of it all because it's my fiancé's birthday this 30th.

I was a medical professional before and I also am compelled to help out anyone who is sick. I don't know, but I just feel bad about not doing anything when you know something. It's not about guilt, it's not my conscience talking to me. I just felt that if I could do something, I have to.

I have a bad feeling about my ex making amends and I can't do anything about it. It was a gut feeling. I thought about people making amends before they go and that scared the shit out of me. I've found out that he's sick and again I can't take care of someone even if I am capable to. He's faraway, he says he's alright but my trauma and my innate urge to care for someone wants me to run to him. Not because I have feelings for him, but I just feel like if something happens to him, that I'd be at fault because I didn't do anything. I could've gotten an asthma attack earlier because I couldn't stop crying. I didn't know what to do, but eventually, I've fallen asleep.

I'm still not feeling well. I was just woken up because of stuff being banged around to sadistically wake me up. But again, thanks for messaging me. I really appreciate it. Thank you so much. We can still talk if you want, you can message me on Telegram.

-- If you have received this, I am truly grateful for your time. Thank you for being there for me any way you can.

I really appreciate it.