I've been feeling less and less in touch with this slutty persona I've built over the course of a year. Maybe it's because I'm busier now than I've ever been, maybe it's because I'm still unsuccessful in my goal of having as much sex as possible, maybe my goals are shifting all together. Not sure what to make if things. Trying to stay in touch with this though. I need to document my journey so that when it does end, there's something to look back on and learn from. I'm not the same person I was a year ago.....and that's ok.

As for horny thoughts, I'm back on my anal fixation and I'm cultivating a new fetish, if you can call it that, where I want to feel something leak out of my ass as if I've been cummed in. Mmmm, that feels is so good, it makes me feel like a good girl who's been throughly bred. Only a fucking slut like me would want to feel cum leaking out her ass as she bends over and begs daddy to fuck her again. 🥵

I've also been getting fully dressed up more, just a simple skirt, panties and thigh highs. It's nit much but it makes me feel so much more feminine. Wearing that and some lip balm makes me feel seductive and, for once, I actually don't mind looking at my face in the mirror when I'm horny. I typically don't jerk off but pulling my panties to the side, lifting up my skirt and jacking it in the mirror makes me feel hot. Trying to practice making cute faces as I'm about to cum.

Finally, I want to be more vocal when I masturbate, not just moaning but begging and pleading my horny desires too. I need to beg for a cock to suck and call my holes what they are when I'm horny. Can't decide if I perfer want to have my "butt fucked", my "ass pounded", my "pussy destroy" or my "bussy violated". Bussy sounds like a happy medium between "pussy" and "butt".

Fantasies are important. For now, I have a basic one where I'm a "helpless boymoder" who gets clocked by a dominant man and I'm pressured into letting him fuck me, even though I secretly want it. I need to get fucked so hard, I'll never forget what a slutty anal princess I really am.

Fantasies like this can be dangerous a d harmful in the real world so it's good just to keep it as a fun writing Exercise during masturbation.

To close, I need to get more comfortable proclaiming when I'm about to cum. Saying something like "Holy shit, I'm gonna cum" or "My ass is cumming" before I cum puts me in the right mindset. I'm a slut who loves cumming her brains out and I must act like it. If I cum, that means I'm enjoying it and the enjoyment but being a slut is important. Smile when you cum, say thank you after cumming and remember to appreciate the work you put into your own pleasure.

That's all for now, be kind to yourself! :)