cw: outing and just airing my grievances about my life sorry in advance for the vent

I hate that I was outed by my parents. I hate how something that should have been my choice was ripped away from me and then I was made to he the bad guy somehow. I hate that so many choices were just made for me by virtue of me being trans and coming out to myself later in life. I never got to have a sweet 16, I never got to make the choice to have kids. I know being trans isn't a punishment, but sometimes it's hard to not feel like I've missed out on so much. it's hard feeling like an integral to who I am has caused so much discourse and pain. I don't wish I wasn't trans, I guess I just wish I had figured some stuff out sooner? idk. all I know is that I appreciate all of you for being such amazing friends and being so accepting of me and I feel really lucky to have met you all.