Six months ago I moved away from my MM so that I could care for my parents. I've only been back to see him twice, for just a couple of days. Check out my previous posts to get the finer points of our relationship.

I do miss him very much and we still text a couple times a day. We broke up once about 3 months ago, but only for about 4 days. Lol.

Even though he misses me greatly, I now know that he will never divorce his wife. I've known this since the beginning and I was ok with it. I'm not going to explain the circumstances, but it is what it is.

As I'm getting older I really would like someone to spend my 'golden years' with. I'm finding that I do look at other men and think if I would like to get to know some of them better. One man I approached and talked to, seemed to be interested in me. I discovered he lives with his girlfriend. That's a big no for me. I refuse to get involved with A man that's already in a relationship again. It just leads to heartache.

My parents are so happy that I'm here with them now and helping them. We always had a good relationship and I'm grateful to have this time with them before they are gone. I'm fairly certain that I'll be living in this town for many years. I'll be moving into my grandmother's old home in a few months. In all likelihood, when my parents pass away, I'll continue to live there and will probably remodel the house. My brother has said he'd like to move into my parents house. That's all good.

My MM tends to get upset when I go to functions or out with friends. He wants me all to himself. I'm getting frustrated with that frame of mind. He's always asking who flirted with me. Or if I have A man with me.

Since he won't leave his wife, I'm of the opinion that I really shouldn't remain his exclusive AP. We've been together about10 years. I would spend the rest of my life with him if I could. But I really don't want to be a 'side piece' anymore.

So I'm going to branch out now. I don't think I'll break up with him. I still would like to see him occasionally and we have such great sex together. I do love him. But I'm not waiting for him any longer. I'm going to make myself busy more often so he won't be texting me constantly. What he doesn't know won't hurt him. But I'm over him pulling my strings to be exclusive. He won't be exclusive, so I'm not either. Send good thoughts to me everyone. I'm breaking free again.