This morning I woke up incredibly horny and I couldn't stop my hands from wandering. I ended up touching myself until I edged around four times. I am not proud of myself and whilst it felt good, I feel ashamed of breaking that rule.

I must not touch myself or edge without Sir's permission. This is because it is selfish to think of my own pleasure when I should be focusing on other people's pleasure. The only way I should receive pleasure is if it is to entertain my superiors. This morning I was alone, and thus no one was there to be entertained. This is wrong.

My own pleasure does not matter. I am to stay needy and denied and only accept pleasure when it comes from someone else.

I regret my actions and have been punished accordingly by admitting to the rule I broke and posting it here. I deserve any degradation and disappointment that comes my way.