My friend who is controlling me at the minute has control of my vibe. He is being very cruel with it. Short bursts of vibrations with ages in between each one, leaving me waiting in anticipation of the next. Its torture, having the vibe sit against my cock, just waiting eagerly for the next burst. I both hate it and love it.

Since I got some sports tape for binding, he had me seal my cock away using it. Definitely no touching for me. I can still feel the vibrations through it, but something about having my cock sealed off turns me on so much. I have to seal it away all day tomorrow. Should be a nice little reminder.

Eight more days until I can fuck my cunt and touch myself. I am beyond excited. Even more excited for my edge day on the 21st. I want to cum so goddamn bad. I almost said I need to, but I don't. Cumming isn't necessary for someone like me. Serving is necessary. I just /want/ to cum. I don't need to cum. I don't need to feel pleasure. My purpose is to pleasure others. I need to stop being selfish by thinking of my own pleasure.