Its been two weeks since I last touched today! A long, frustrating, needy two weeks. Can't believe I made it this long.

As a punishment for my... bad behaviour yesterday, I had my phone restricted today. I had certain time limits for apps, even reddit, in which writing this is using some of my time.

As well as this, I'm not allowed any pleasure whatsoever. No nipple play, no plugging my ass, and of course no cunt or cock as usual. I keep going to pinch my nipples and then remembering.

Its probably a good thing that Im using my phone less, but it sucks all the same. All I can focus on is my cunt aching to be stuffed full, and my cock begging to be touched.

I crave to pinch and pull and clamp my nipples. I can't even do that today. My cock aches more. Its getting harder and harder to ignore it. I won't make it without touching until the end of the year.

If I do eventually give in to my cocks desire, I feel the punishment will be heavy. I'm hoping I can continue to ignore how desperate my cock is. I NEED to keep ignoring it. It doesn't deserve to feel any pleasure. My purpose is to pleasure others, not to pleasure myself. My pleasure does not matter. I am inferior.