Two whole weeks of no orgasms, and 11 days of no touch! I'm doing so well! I'm spending tonight watching other men edge and cum, just to reinforce that I don't get to feel how they feel. I don't even get to touch, never mind orgasm. I've decided I'm going to try to go until the end of the year without orgasming. Thats my goal, New Years Eve. Then, before the clock strikes 12, I am going to have one last big orgasm. 2024 is the year I don't cum. Whether thats self denial, or having someone control me, thats how I want it to go.

I practiced some slave poses earlier. I'm hoping they come in useful in the future. I'm going to train to be a good, useful, obedient slave so that my future Dom will see the best in me.

The orgasm porn has really made me crave an orgasm and a good fucking in my cunt. I know I'm not allowed it, but I really want it right now.

I'd like it if I could find a strict but caring Dom who would be consistent and enforce rules for me. I thrive on rules and strictness. Maybe one day.