Life isn't easy, no. One of my favorite movies would even go so far as to say "life is pain," and that anyone who says differently is selling something. True, in some regards. A lot, actually. But not all. That's that hopeless romantic in me.

I've gone through a retraumatization of a previous event in my life, and it's been hard. It's made me realize I truly don't have the support I need - especially when things just keep tripping further down the hole.

The last thing I need in a time like this is to come here and have my birth name plastered all over my inbox - the only person who would know that is someone I previously connected with, and if we're not talking now, well, that's for a reason, no? Please don't do that. You're not who I need to rely on. I'm looking for my future - not my past.

I refuse to be held down by the negative feelings within, and I will, with enough work and commitment, be able to accept those feelings and work with them. I'm a strong person & I'm looking for the kind of guy to help me when I'm feeling a bit weaker than normal. We can remind each other of our strengths.