I write these from time to time, as you probably know. It's basically the same old thing over and over, but each one has its nuances.

Usually these are written from the perspective of sending a letter to my first male lover in the future. This one is more from the perspective of the present and being in search of him. Without further ado...

Daddy, where are you? I'm searching for you. I need you, Daddy. And I desire you. How I long to get naked with you and embrace you, our bodies touching without any clothes to inhibit our desires for each other. I'm so ready for my first gay time and I want an experienced and older man like you to take me in your arms and securely make love to me. I need a Daddy to share companionship with me. I seem kind of lonely lately and maybe I could use a new kind of person to make friends with, a friend who understands certain things most of your other friend's wouldn't. I could also use a guide to this wonderworld that's unknown to me. I need you to let me know I'm sexy. Such a small word of encouragement would lighten up my day! I sometimes forget lol. Yes I want us to have orgasms lol, but I don't want sex to necessarily be the end. I want those euphoric moments to open us emotionally and bring a special closeness with each other.

But most of all, I think, I need you to hold me tight and let me know it's perfectly OK to be enjoying this, to feel each other's erections, to experience something natural and beautiful that has stupidly been suppressed for centuries or maybe even millennia. Do it with a lot of kisses. Kissing helps bring the experience to a more personal level, which I crave.

I know I will meet you someday, but I can't wait!