The last couple of weeks my mental health has taken a serious dive. At the beginning of quarentine I was ok. Lazy and in survival mode but mental health wise I was mostly ok.

I've now been out of work since March 31. Since mar 31 I have worked 7 hours over the course of 2 days since I am unable to work from home.

The only verbal social interaction I've had is with my NP and with two friends who have stopped to pick up mail that they had delivered here and one other friend that works at a restaurant that we would pick up food from.

I go in spurts when it comes to being motivated around the house. Some days I vacuum intensely, including moving furniture. Other days I do nothing but lie on the couch. Animal crossing is the only consistent I've had, making sure I log on every day to do my fossil hunting.

I think the hardest part is my co dependency issues are sort of starting to resurface. Im home alone all day until NP gets home from work. Over the weekend we had a gorgeous day and I wanted to work in the garden but because of his allergies he couldn't be outside with me. So I opted to spend the day with him inside because I couldn't really imagine spending our day together separate. Pre quarentine this wouldn't have been an issue because I'd be used to doing things and going places and having our own separate time. But it's starting to make that bad again.

I'm tired. I'm not motivated. I struggle getting drawn into games. I struggle getting drawn into books. I dont even want to watch TV even though the girlfriend gave me a long list of shows and movies to watch. Instead I lay on the couch and be a blob.

I'm supposed to go back to work semi regularly in 2 weeks... maybe some return to regular will help. In the mean time I think another nap is in order. Yay coping mechanisms