Today's word of the day, ladies and gentlemen, is apathy.

Meriam Webster defines apathy as lack of feeling, emotions; lack of interest, concern.

This is a very under discussed aspect of depression. My depression has... Settled. It isn't anywhere near it was. But I had an amazing weekend and I had the sun. So that's to be expected. However I woke up very apathetic today. It took me hours to care about anything. I got to work and did the bear minimum because I had been out the previous two days (yay time with the girlfriend 💜💜) but I just couldn't care about anything. I woke up late because I didn't care. I didn't care about anything my co workers have to say or needed me to do. I cared about nothing.

This is an interesting experience for me as I'm an empath normally. Sometimes I have to push myself to be more apathetic to function past my empathy. Today I found myself needing to push more towards my empathy, and just... Couldn't care to because yay apathty.

It all worked out. By the end of the day my give a damn slowly came back. And through it all I knew I cared about the important people in my life; my husband, my girlfriend, my parents, and my best friend. But also I only cared about the important things at that point. Trivial things just pissed me off. Well. Irritated me as I couldn't care enough to be pissed off.

Depression is interesting. Mine is on the upswing now that fall has been around for a few weeks. But my exhaustion is also making things flair up. But don't forget - if someone who normally cares is acting suddenly they don't care? It may be a sign of depression. It isn't necessarily personal