Long ago, I quickly recognized that the weather has a profound impact on my mental health. It is becoming increasingly so. Once I became medicated, the mood swings from the weather had lessened slightly; or perhaps I didn't recognize them or feel them, due to the fact that, well, I was just learning what "normal" was. And how I was SUPPOSED to be.

It's been getting more dramatic, though, and instead of taking a couple days, it's almost instant how quickly the weather affects me. Yesterday, I was in a pretty great mood. I was tired. I was a little bummed because my parents had left. But overall, I was in a good mood. I got a lot accomplished at work. I came home, played video games, took a bath, read, relaxed, and overall enjoyed my evening.

Today? 0 motivation to do anything, I'm down, I'm tired. I'm just not doing great. Yesterday I was able to deal with certain emotional stressors; today, these stressors are upsetting me. The difference? Yesterday was good weather. Today, it's raining. And will be raining all day. No one is in the office. I could get a lot done. Except I'm just... sitting here. I want to go home, but I know going home won't be any better. All I may do is sit there and curl up with the dogs under a blanket. I doubt I even have the energy or desire to play games or read if I were to go home.

So instead. I will just keep pushing through. I'm going to whine. I'm going to complain. I'm going to be miserable. But I have to push through. I don't have much other choice right now. I just need to keep going.