I realized yesterday after posting, I miss having an online journal. I miss the days of xanga and livejournal. SO. I'm making reddit my new blog. I don't really care if anyone actually READS what I write, but I don't like paper journals. They're a waste. I also like just being able to post something somewhere. So.... hi reddit, thank you for being my new journal/blog/place to write/what have you.

Today my depression seems to be less than it was yesterday. I'm thankful for this as my folks are in town, and I dislike having the conversation with them, "Well what do you have to be depressed about?!" Every time I try to explain it's a chemical imbalance, but they don't get it. Last time I finally related it to, "Well dad hasn't eaten sugar in a whole TWELVE HOURS and his sugar has been fine, what does he have to be diabetic about? And your thyroid numbers have been perfectly fine, why do you need to take your thyroid medicine still?" I think that finally got it through mom's head that for me it isn't triggers, but an illness just like hyperthyroidism or diabetes. I don't really get anxious about them visiting, but sometimes the thought of having THAT conversation every time triggers my anxiety. It's probably what made yesterday worse, since I was already having a major depression episode yesterday, I may have been getting anxious about having to explain it to them as I also started to feel an anxiety attack bubble up in my chest. I slept through the anxiety attack though, thank god.

Life is good. Life is fun. One step at a time.