Me a month ago: Even my rebound actually gives a fuck about me (slightly) and is 10x more honest than my ex is, and I don't have to hide myself.

Me now: My ex seeing me losing it and helping rebound me from my rebound, who temporarily destroyed me with dishonesty, manipulation, etc.

Eh, good things come from bad situations lol. I appreciate my ex-fling for being a helpful enough rebound to move on from my ex, and while I resent the obvious mental stress and additional trauma, it seemed to like... do a good domino effect in some other facets of life, i suppose.

My ex was a 'this is not good for me' scenario, and the ex-fling was "OH DAMN YEAH THIS IS ABSOLUTELY NOT NEEDED EITHER, WHAT THE FUCK???? JESUS CHRIST." He distracted me from the pain of my ex-boyfriend in the way that getting wacked in the face with a hot frying pan would distract you from the pain of like, 8 mosquito bites, if that makes sense.

I learned what about my ex I wanted and didn't want; I learned about my ex-fling what I did enjoy, what joys I could find aside from my ex, and also plenty of things to discuss in therapy/what traits in any future people to sprint away from.

A lot of traits. Like, too many actually.

Plus it's funny, ironic, and kinda nice. My ex saw me getting REAL BAD and just kinda went "Oh? He was gonna do what to your room? I can do that instead", and offered to help me out. Saw me at my worst, being an absolute wreck, and decided he still absolutely wants to be around me and make me happy.

I still find shit like that sweet. It's a shame, but yeah, it's affirming. I'm still worthy of care and appreciation regardless and don't need to be so.... stressed, since people really fuck with me mad hard.

And the dumbass ex-fling situation lead to me doing a rant on the things I hate/loathe men doing, and I guess my ex was watching when I wasn't aware.

So now he's actually initiating date plans, lol. Which I find charming. I guess my "I wouldn't ask a woman out if I didn't have cash, didn't know where I was going, or what to do! I already know where exactly I'd take a girl for a first date RIGHT NOW if asked!", rant on a separate account was efficient, lol.

I'm flattered. I'm quite excited.