Uncle Henryyyyyy

That was honestly one of the most intimidating shots I've had to do so far! I remember they pushed me right up against the counter and told me not move while they put the camera right on my butt and told me to just kept stirring. The whole time I just kept thinking about how far my shorts were up my butt and how silent the kitchen was. I looked up from the counter at some point and realized that NONE of the crew members were in kitchen...because they were all freakin behind me! My shorts suddenly felt even SMALLER. My thong on underneath even tighter. And I know you can't "feel" eyes on your butt, but I swear I could feel them on my butt! Uncle Henry it was so intense. I can't believe you picked that shot. My heart was beating so fast for those 5 minutes (it was honestly probably like 10 seconds lol)

But I soldered on like you said!!

I'm really happy that my being intimidating isn't noticeable. I always get a lil paranoid it will be and I won't come across as attractive as I could

But YES every shoot is intimidating. But I am getting more comfortable in the outfits. I think that's why I wear similar outfits more regularly in public. I don't think I'll ever not be at least a little (or a lot lol) intimidated, but it helps. Also if it was easy then all the attention I get wouldn't mean as much I don't think. You know?

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Edit: Thinking about adding to one of the middle messages and changing it to this:

But I soldered on like you said!! And I'm happy with the shot. I thought it turned out great. Did you like it?

You think too much though??

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In response to his messages:

And the fact that even though you felt intimidated in those little red shorts, you soldiered on anyways. I'm in awe of that. Is it always intimidating when you do a shoot? You certainly don't show it if so, but I feel honored that I get to know some of the behind the scenes. I'm watching your videos again now with this new knowledge.

For instance: Is it intimidating when they do a camera position like this on you?

[followed by the ass closeup screenshot he sent of me...his freakin niece!...willlldddddd]

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