Hey yall,

Thanks for all your support these past few years. I have received msgs from some of yall about why I haven't posted or why all my content is gone now...

First and foremost, I just don't have time to post anymore nor do I enjoy it as much with all the unsolicited dick pics. I have a hate and love relationship with posting online. One minute, i love the praise and validation. The next, I hate being seen as a sex object.

Growing up, I always read romance novels and it got to the point where I had to stop reading them because I wanted that kind of love so badly. And that kind of love seems pretty much impossible to come by nowadays. Especially with posting online, there are always taken men messaging me and it honestly gives me less and less hope about finding something genuine and pure.

No matter how much I enjoy sex, I will always value finding a real connection over casual sex. Kind of why I just stick to posts about having my pussy eaten because FWBs never really work for me. One of my worst fears is being led on and used for my body— I have always been wanted to be seen more than that and that’s not something I will find on here.

I'd like to think that I have a really good heart and maybe that's why I get hurt so easily. But you know, you learn and move on. It's just that right now, I was hurt in a way that I have never experienced before.

And it's fucking rough.

I was really angry and hurt at first, but now I am just hurt. Although I did not love this person, I thought they had a pure soul and that we really had a connection. It's unfair to be left with so many unanswered questions. But the saddest part is that, I would forgive this person if they apologized and told me the truth because I am very understanding. Clearly, that is not going to happen because they don't want to face how much they've hurt me or they simply don't care.

I have been trying to delete my reddit, but it won't let me so I will keep my account up for a few more days and then try deleting again. If it doesn’t let me delete, then I’ll just keep it up.

Thank you guys for the love and support, but I need time to heal from what happened and take a break from trying to find some sort of real connection. I need to reevaluate how much value I put into men and focus more on loving myself.