You know, I have to say I do appreciate women who are confident and even those who aren't confident, but know who they are. It is with that being said, that I've had a lot of time to reflect on myself and I realized, I am quite a low value man and always have been. I know there are quite a few people who don't view that low value and high value thing with any clout, but let's just say for a minute that it is a thing and does exist. I am going to say, at the very least that it does exist.

Now, I will say, without a reasonable doubt that I am a high value employee. I have been told I am, in many different variants, many a times and I tend to believe that. I'm not bragging or trying to make myself sound better than I am, it's just that I am proud of that. Although, a high value employee does not make a high value partner.

On the other hand, I am not high value when it comes to relationships. My sister has said, she doesn't think I am low value, but aren't sisters supposed to tell you that? They are. Literally the only thing I have really going for me, is that I am intelligent. In the looks department, I know I'm not anything special. I definitely don't have a nice smile. Physically, yes I'm trim and fit, but I am definitely not super showey muscular like a lot of men. I don't have any real experience in the intimacy department, long but short story on that one. I'm not funny. I am definitely not good at flirting, because I'm not a quick thinker like some men. By the way, hat tip to all the guys I've heard in person that know how to flip stuff so fast, I'm impressed. As far as bank accounts, not there either, for one major reason, as I've discussed more than I care to again at this point. I guess my earnings potential is alright, but again not at this point. I am literally stuck in a low paying job because I moved to this country and my future ex-wife doesn't want to move to anywhere where I would earn better.

I think I know why I've gotten to be so low value. I think my future ex-wife has caused this. She didn't want me to wake up and realize that I could be a separate person or better. Again, it's all my own fault. I let this happen. I still don't really understand why I left this happen. I know my life is a mess and it is 100% my fault. I really should have stopped it when I could have.

With all of this said, I don't even think I will ever find a woman that would ever be happy with me. Does it make me sad? I would be lying if I said it doesn't. Who doesn't want to find undying love? Who doesn't want to find the woman that sends shivers up your spine went you see them across the room? I think that happens, but I've only had those shivers twice and with both of those women, I blew it rather quickly. Anyways, I highly think that is the only reason I stay where I am, I just don't want to be alone. I really do get treated pretty poorly and I honestly let it happen. If I left, I know for a fact that I would be alone for a long time if not forever. Do I blame any woman? Nope, if I were a woman, I would avoid me as well.

The only positive to all of this is I have also realized I won't ever settle again. I promise that to myself.