To God or The Higher Power Above,

I'm sorry. Please forgive me for doubting you or not knowing you existed, although I still will claim I'm agnostic and will need further proof. I still don't fully know if you exist or not, but I will admit, I do think you have been giving me signs all along, when I asked for them. See, I asked for signs of this person I married was the right one for me and you more than delivered, I was just too dumb and dense to realize what you were showing me. It only just dawned on me this morning, while answering another post, that you have in fact been sending these messages for a long while and again, I just failed to see them.

The first time I asked, I was met with her telling me she wasn't the girl in the picture she sent, but it was her sister. I laugh, because that came out later that it wasn't her sister, but her daughter, but that is a story for another day.

I honestly really don't remember all the times I asked, but I am finally starting to remember all the signs as to if this person I am married to is the right one for me or not, or if I deserve better of not. For instance, just today, I remembered the silent treatment over the box of nails in the parking lot of Home Depot. For a week, it lasted and then I was exposed to how stupid I was for going back in and paying for it, after I found out they didn't scan it. I was taught to rectify my debts and have honor.

I was attacked for being intelligent.

I remember the times that people would give that little subtle eye-roll.

I found the forgeries and fraud she did in my name and quite literally, last week, she did it yet again, not once, but twice, by signing my name for me, without even asking me and I was sat in the same room, when she did it the second time. I do remember asking you this time, if I should carry on with my plan or not and I'm supposing this might be your answer.

Please forgive me, Your lost soul who is finally finding his way