Furthermore, I tried to go places with her, but that has become a distant memory as well. At first, it was little things. Oh, but then it became big things that I was dumb for thinking this or that.

It's also quite annoying to go someplace and have her get asked by the server, what is your mother having? I always explain she's my wife and get odd looks or oh I'm sorries. She would of course get mad and think how do they not know? I know why, but I will go to my grave with that reason never crossing my fingers or lips to anyone on the outside. I absolutely hate how she always comes home with, I met so and so today and let me tell you, I've aged well compared to them. Who the fuck says that? I have never once thought to myself, wow I look better than someone else.