Well, yesterday I got terrible news. I received an email from my prospective employer about my interim clearance. I realize what it said, in all actualhood, and sadly the job that I thought was going to allow me to escape what I'm faced with now, will wait until my final clearance is before they make a decision on whether or not to continue with my employment. Code speak, thank you for your time, but sadly you probably won't ever hear from us again.

I know why. It all boils down to I let myself relocate to England and now I have no chance. I don't know where to go from here. I truly did want to work at that place. I know my situation is no where near as bad as some people and that alone makes me take pause and thank the heavens for the things I do have.