I just want to vent a little and I don’t have a platform outside this to do it... I’m ftn and it sucks when I’m horny and dysphoric. Like right now I’m packing and trying to use my packer to get off but it’s not the same and I don’t want to touch myself directly because right now I can’t even type out what’s actually in my pants. I wish I had a real dick sometimes but I bet if i was born biologically male I’d be just as miserable. I haven’t been able to get off recently so I guess I’ll just add one more night of sexual frustration to the list. Ngh, I can feel my dick pressing against my stomach begging me to play with it but I’m too dysphoric to try to really get myself off/enjoy myself. Fuck me. Like literally someone fuck me