bpd x ddlg rant

all i want is for a man to fuck me like if they were any farther apart from me than inside me he’d lose his mind from how much he wants me. i want to feel like something truly precious to someone, something he’d never let go of, something he’d own and take care of and show off. i want him to own my body, mind, heart and soul. i want him to fuck me like he loves me. i want a man to love me this way. in a way that my entire body can experience and give in to.

every hour i think about sex. sex with a man that treats me like a princess. i wanna be his good little girl. his prized possession. his babygirl. his fuck toy. his dirty little slut. his cock worshipping slave. his whole world. i want to be his. i want him to fuck me till i'm unconscious and then wake me up with more and fall deeper in love with him with every stroke. i want him to be obsessed with the way my pussy and body feels. i want him to breed me. i want to be available for him to feel good using my body all the time.

i'm insatiable. i wanna be fucked and filled every meal time. midnight snack. morning coffee. mid day pick me up. he would make me forget i've ever had sex with anyone but him.

i want him to be my Daddy. i’ve been into DDLG the moment i learned about it. it’s a lifestyle. i want it. i want a man who’ll take care of me and love me and reassure me that i’m okay. that i’m his perfect little girl. that the only thing he’ll ever want in life is me. that everything he does is to make me happy.

but this is unhealthy and in other ways manipulating. i have borderline personality disorder and i know this is just a fantasy of extreme attachment. i still want it to be real. i still want to find a man who will do all of the above for me. love every fucking molecule of my matter. i want to matter so much to him it almost hurts.

i’m sure there must be something wrong with me. something underlying the trauma of my childhood, i’ve always felt so incredibly helpless to loneliness. i’ve always wanted someone to love me unconditionally and unwaveringly. there’s so much to unpack but this would be too long and too complicated. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think i’ll ever achieve this fantasy. i got close and by the end of what felt like a dream realized was just a fucking falsely perceived reality.

bpd/autism hookup culture (i don’t want a one night stand) if you just want sex i can’t give that to you, i really want someone to connect with me (and also fuck me)

i am autistic, and i have borderline personality disorder (BPD). what this means is sex feels different for me mainly bc of the BPD.

i hate having bpd. it constantly feels like everyone perceiving me as overreacting or exaggerating when for me, everything feels so much more extreme.

it’s why neurotypical people are unable to empathize because they have never known emotions that are so strong they affect you physically. this includes sex.

when i’m filled with lust, i’m brimming with so much desire i can’t think straight. that being said, my thoughts become super divisive. everything is yes or no and good and bad.

so i think i should lay out what i am looking for in order for me to want to have consistent sex with someone. along with things that i’ll usually automatically say no to.

** i am a sensitive person and so if you say i have attitude or a mood- easy way to get blocked. **

let’s start with the NO, I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU:

• TRUMP/MAGA/Conservatives
• weed. so if you smoke it or consume it, you won’t vibe with me anyways.
• any and all drugs including shrooms.
• men who assume because i’m comfortable and confident in my sexuality it means that i’m easy.
• porn addiction / porn sick people
• men who can’t go at least 3-5 rounds minimum, we probably won’t have good sex. i like making a man cum as many times as possible while conscious my goal is always at least 8 that can include into the morning too.
• men who get post nut clarity or shame afterwards, there’s nothing wrong with having sex, work through your mental.
• men who don’t know what aftercare is
• men with anger issues [if you’ve made it this far make sure to let me know with the words “pink pokémon”]

WHAT I WANT/LIKE: (this doesn’t guarantee sex)

• you have to be able to host/hotel (I CANNOT)
• men with shaved or trimmed pubes. two main reasons, 1) irritation and friction, 2) more comfortable head (i don’t like giving head tbh)
• men with cut cock
• men 6’4 and higher (i’ll immediately fold!! i’m 5’4 so the looking up at you is hot)
• men who enjoy touching, caressing, fondling
• during and after sex hydration snacks (water, juice, etc)
• able to pick me up (YOU HAVE A CAR)
• men who like cuddles and cockwarming afterwards i’m a little spoon
• men who know what a REAL WOMANS BODY LOOKS LIKE (go fuck a pornstar if that’s what you want)
• men who are genuinely kind and patient with me and passionate lovers [while you’re here, next test to see if you read this lmk your worst sex story.]

lastly i can’t stress this enough because all of you men are stupid, selfish, and so self-righteous

be very patient and considerate ! read my profile ! match my energy in bed ;) be honest and sincere ! listen to me and made good conversation with me ! be confident, NOT condescending or rude !

AVOID being creepy or pushy or aggressive DO NOT doctor or manipulate your dick pics RECENT photos