The way I have always viewed love and relationships of any kind has always been different. I've always been interested in incest in a way that is beyond that wrong/taboo feeling. For me it is the closeness and the trust. It is in the same way of friends to lovers/sex partners to me.

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I've always been the type to want to make my friends and loved ones feel great. it is just simply in me to be that way. I do not mean this in a "slutty" way. I have never been the type to go out and hook up with strangers. No shame to those who do that but that just isn't me. But if I have a friend who I love. I will want to please them sexually and it isn't romance based. Going back to when I was young. I had two close male friends and I would often give them handjobs/blowjobs. We had sex a handful of times but I had a big fear of pregnancy and never trusted even condoms back then. I was the girl that said "lets do anal" before vaginal sex.

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It sort of has translated into incest but this is just how I view friendships. In life you only make a handful of really close friends that you truly love and would die for. So why wouldn't I want to bring them pleasure? I have a husband on the same wave length. While it isn't my place to go into his history with friends/incest, he has a history and the same sort of thoughts that I do. I've given and received oral sex from half of my close female friends. I've slept with male friends. I find it is easier to be openly sexual with female friends because men get very attached. I had a male friend I fooled around with and wanted to be my open sexual self with. But he got possessive and claimed he was in love with me and I had to cut it off. I don't want to sound like a man hater but I am able to be far more sexually free with my female friends. But I have fucked/sucked male friends and still do currently given the chance. I feel like if men had a more relaxed view of sex and women then women would feel more comfortable talking and being casually sexual. The problem arises when women show a man a small amount of attention and that man becomes obsessed won't stop messaging or reaching out. But I also understand men's struggle in that the typical man gets far less sexual options than the typical women.

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Not long ago I was at a concert with friends(some men some women) and my husband wasn't there. I gave my friend a blowjob at a couple of stops and we fucked in the backseat of the car after the show.

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Another good friend of mine in the past(I'm still very good friends with this man) had issues. He's a kind sweet man but he just would fold around women and couldn't hold a conversation. I just offered myself to him and we had a good time and still have a good time if we get together. It really changed the trajectory of his life. He was overweight and stayed in most of the time. But after a few sessions with me he changed his diet, cut his hair, worked out and in a year and a half he became desirable to women. It wasn't the looks either but they did help. It was his whole demeaner change and desperation went down. He didn't feel like if a woman that was somewhat into him slipped through his fingers he'd never have a chance at getting pussy. It changed a lot for him and I don't want to just credit myself. He went to therapy and put a lot of work on himself but seeing me: a woman, as something normal in front of him helped. From the first blowjob I gave him he was changed for the better forever.

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I've always been that cuddly touchy friend where I just might start kissing your neck and reaching down your pants. And it is just part of me to treat people I love in that way. My husband is the same and has his sexual partners but we do not have a open relationship. We are only romantic and together with each other. All other side things are just friends. Some people this makes sense to and some people it doesn't but this is how I explain it. A friend/acquaintance will see me somewhere getting handsy with a woman/man that I am close with and will go " I saw you" as if accusing me. Or someone will see my husband in that way too.

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It works for me. One of my husband's childhood best friends(a woman) lost her husband. This is someone that is like a sister to my husband. They'd never been intimate. But my husband stayed with her for a week or so while she was in mourning and they ended up having sex. It was a moment when she really needed someone and it hasn't happened since. I wouldn't even be upset if it did happen again but it is nice to be able to be there for someone. I genuinely think a lot of lonely people/inc*l type would benefit from this kind open world. But then people get possessive and can't handle it so it is hard but it all works for me and that is all that matters. This bled into my past sexual relationship with my uncle and my current relationship with my son. People often bring up feelings and romance but for me it is just its own separate thing. People have described my sex life and thoughts as "hippy" but it's how I feel and I used to be confused about it. But I am happy with where I am and how I express myself.

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My son is from me. I birthed him and raised him. I want to see him happy and feeling good. It just seems natural to me to want to give him orgasms or good feelings between the legs. But it is for this reason I always put his feelings first and never let my own desires have us do something we'd regret in the wrong time