People know what they're doing. Everytime I've done something good or done something bad I've been fully aware. I remember months ago speaking to someone about how everyone knows how you're supposed to treat someone if you care about them. At the very least we know all the generic things people say we should do to "show" we care. That individual agreed. Then a few days later I remember telling them I didn't like the way they were treating me. Like, why? I've never been such a weirdo in my life (and thankfully haven't been since). I know communication is good, being transparent about your feelings is good, but sometimes it's really not necessary. It's not necessary to tell someone they are hurting you, they know that. It's not necessary to make excuses for "why" someone may be doing what they are doing; they, too, can communicate. So many interactions are just not necessary.

I've done bad things when it comes to how I've treated people. Or how I treat people, I'm now a weirdo in other ways unfortunately (?) hahaha. Still, it's so weird to think you have to try to create justifications for things that are so obvious. Especially if you're being deeply disrespected, why would you even want to allow any leeway for that. It's so pathetic. I hate that. I would never want to be in a situation where I'm so deeply attached to a person that instead of requiring the truth as to why they do what they do, I lie to myself. I remember seeing a joke about that, how when girls really like a guy he doesn't even have to lie because she'll do that for him. I hope I never experience emotions like that for another human being. Sounds like torture. hahah.